woke up feeling damn lonely today. sound so wrong right! but dont get the wrong idea.

so.. it's like. a very long time ago since i had this kind of feelings.. waking up to an empty house plus the feeling that nobody even care what time i woke and everything. nobody cares what i does. nobody would even know if i died at home or what.

a yr since i felt this, to be precise. a yr ago, i was busy with the exams to think so much. then working. and then had myself a bf. and stop working & prepared for the exams. i woke up either having somewhere to rush to, something impt to do, or to have bf smsing me early in the morn. which i feel was rather comforting.

no more of this. nobody hardly even seriously care.

oh, part and parcel of life.