lately, i've been seeing alot of moths ard. is it just me or?

been drink drank drunk lately because that's supposedly the easiest way to past my useless time. and maybe because i am only either alone at home or at cdc. that's y incidents at cdc are surprisingly funny and interesting.

and. one of my gd friend is not speaking to me anymore. he says that because i wont be with him, so he doesnt want to talk to me anymore. i really dont understand. why cant male and female be just gd friends? by doing this, he just created a sore loser image in my mind. women are hard to please and understand. bai says that just like men doesnt understand women, women doesnt understand men too. so true. what is going on in men's mind?

reminds me of an old incident.

once, i had this very gd girl friend. we were quite close together. took alot of neoprints together. then she had a boyfriend who was my ex. then finally, one day the guy told her that he still have feelings for me. but that time i didnt know abt it. then suddenly she doesnt talk to me anymore. then i think i ask our common friend, then she told me that her bf broke up with her because of me. that's y she doesnt want to talk to me anymore. then after that i stray away from tt bunch of friends and got into bad company. then quit school.

i think i've added her in friendster when friendster just started and tt time she didnt talk to me already. and she didnt accept me lah. then, its like... broke off all connections already. wasnt able to find her in fb now.

really miss her alot. alot of times i flip thru my photo album and saw the whole whooping 2 pages of neoprints. i wonder how is she now. i ask my ex abt her. he says that she saw her once in town and dont know rumours from where says that she's not straight anymore. i hope she's really alright.

we're gonna have a gathering soon for sec sch. i didnt see her getting tag in the group photos taken from sec sch. so im guessing she doesnt know abt the gathering and noboby else have contacts with her anymore. i wish i could see her in the gathering.





anw, abt the bad bruises on my leg. it's not getting any better cause i dont put zambak on it. i hate zambak! i dont know why its so hard to waste it off and it leaves my leg sticky! i tried using soap but it doesnt get off! i cant scrub it real hard cause its painful. urgghhh....
that's why my bruises is not getting any better. it's like a permanent stain there.