I'm freaking stressed out with finding a good job. I end up drinking everynight.


What a shame.

Tell me what's the use of getting a good qualification? What the use of being clever in studies? Every interview I attended, they all said I'm clever. But then again, the only interviews I was being invited to are all small firms. And eventually I will end up rejecting them.

I know I am smart. But what's the use of being smart in examinations only?

Today, this interviewer manage to digged up my ugly truth in secondary school because unexpectedly, he took my whole certificate file from me. I didnt expect him to do that, so I didnt take out all the 'Tak Glam' comments made abt my rebellious seconday school life. And Ta-Da! Exposed. He end up commenting that I'm spoilt but of course, in a very nice way. Sometimes, I really hate myself to be the only child. It just shapes my character right from the very start. Who should I blame? That idiot man, perharps.

You know, today when the interviewer asked abt how old my dad is, I kept quiet. Because I don't even know. Then I end up telling him they are divorced. Everytime when I go for interviews, I keep answering this question. My voice would tremble and it really makes me feel like crying. It's not that I miss him or what. It's just that I feel so abandon and small suddenly. And I feel so heartache for mummy. Obviously, I also feel that mummy did a great job by raising me up and now I'm all grown up trying to get a job. I feel very touched. Everything just makes me feel like crying.

The Hard and Ugly Truth